I finally went to New York! It's only  a few hours away :3 A cheap Metro ride and I'm there! It was amazing! The buildings are sooo talllllll it's redonkulous, but they are all so pretty...I got to see Broadway...dream fufilled! I wanted to see Wicked but they are sold out for the next three months x3. So many stores to shop in O_O We sat on a tour bus most of the time just to look around...but omg...it looked awesome. I saw a PETA petition outside of the biggest Macy's I have ever seen. It was HUGE I can't wait to go back :3. I went to China town and that was a little creepy with the shady people selling knock off handbags trying to get me to buy one.. It was a little scarey but whatever! I got a fedora for real cheap :3 and a scarf It's a really beautiful place...and yeaaaa

NO SNOW YET >:( I am bummed! I want it!


I come to lousiana on the 22nd I BETTER HEAR FROM YOU!!!

We'll I've survived so far in Massachusetts. I'm really enjoying it actually. The scenery is nice, it is neat driving around town and seeing mountains scattered about here and there. I love the cool weather. It's already starting to get a bit chilly again. I can't  wait for the snow to hit. :D But that still won't be for a while yet ;^;.  I got me a real job now >_> instead of working at a slaughter house or with my dad. I am now an OR associate at Baystate Medical Health :D. It'll be sweet. I"m sitting out this year of school to work, and start paying on my school loans. I also have to buy a new car =_=.  Rueben will be joining me up here soon. Just waiting for my dad to purchase the ticket! AND soon I'll be going to my first furry con! :x It'll be an interesting experience. FurFright is about an hour away. :D So a friend and I are going to be rooming together. I hear this one has the most fursuiters which will be strange for sure but hey...I'm aiming to have fun.  I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO REPORT! KTHNXBAI

Well....he passed away around 6:30 sunday night I was getting off the train from visiting Jess. That was a horrible welcome home....

Wooo Busy week. Man.  Got a bit of bad news at the begging. My granddad on Dad's side has been fighting cancer for a bout two years now possibley? He got the all clear and quit taking the kemo pills. In...about a month he goes back because he's feelng absolutely deathly, throwing up everything he eats, intense pain all over, and it turns out...the cancer came back and took pieces of his liver, stomach, and lungs. So they go to the emergency room and they keep him on morphine for about two days while they run tests. He's back on kemo injections, and decided he wanted to leave the hospital and do his treatment at home.  Since he's in poor health, we probably think that this will be the time it beats him, which sucks majour. Dad is so upset, the day he got the call he cried all day, and you can still tell he wants to cry when he talks about it. Mom said when he got the phone call, she was walking out of a store and she said his head just dropped. That's a phone call no one's prepared to get no matter how much you psyche yourself up for it.

I have to wonder what was going on through Papa Jimmy's head. How scarey is it to know that...your own body is trying to kill you? And also that there's little you can do to stop it when it is just as stubborn as you? It's starting to get into very dangerous territory. I have a feeling this will be the end of it. Mom and Dad went out to Florida for four days for a meeting. They were wanting to get out of it so they could go to Texas for Papa Jimmy, but I'm sure they'll be heading out that way once they get back.

On a lighter note, the internet has infected the real world! I was driving around town with mom reading signs and I came upon a deli. On the billboard it was talking about Tickets for sixflags and further down it said " lol cheese 3.49". I took a piccie of it. What's Lol cheese? Anyone know?

Fursuiters are crazy o.O I could never ever be one .  It's insane and all kinds of hot x.x....

Toshiba sent me a new battery for my lappy! x3 but like I told them that's not the problem. Looks like I get to call them again.

Hahaha so I quit posting for a while. Things have been fine here up north x3. Waiting for the warm weather to come, it's not so cold now. Definately not used to it yet though. My birthday was fun I got a bamboo wacom tablet, it's a small little thing, but it's just right for me. Just gotta send my laptop in and then we'll be good to go on art. I haven't gotten around tos ending it in yet. I've been having fun we went up to New Hampton the other day and I got to see a lot of old cathedrals and things they were really pretty. Definately can't wait to do some shopping but I need to save up some more money.Hehe. Josh is headed back to Louisiana tomorrow to go to his girlfriend's prom I'm kinda jealous because I want to go and get Rueben x3. I keep trying to find a place to put him, but the barn I work with won't allow him to come becaue they have another dog there that likes to start fights. Still looking for a place to board him. Fun stuff. Next week I get to be a furry x3. They are having a kid's night at dad's store so I get to dress up as the texas roadhouse mascot and dance around for little kids. That'll be funny to do =p.

I'm begining to dislike laptops. They are quite convenient in being portable and all....but they aren't built to last. I'm trying to get mine sent back to toshiba for a replacement, because it refuses to charge.Dealing with the people t the toshiba company is not a fun thing either. you know what's wrong with your computer and they want to convince you it's something else. The pin where the adapter plugs into the computer is loose. And I have to twist and turn the charger to get it to charge. Now it won't do it at all....so.....I'm going to send it back. I am wondering if I can convince dad to trade me for the desktop...I jut need a way of making it faster..cause right now it can't handle much.

I also have so much art to upload. I'm in one of those moods where I want to draw but everything comes out borked and gross and i don't like it, but hey...whatever. I need to bug dad about getting my scanner shipped over here. I want to get rueben shipped over here too. Cause I miss him so much x.x I didn't think it'd be so bad at first, but I miss that little twit.

So far I'm digging Massachusetts. I got me a volunteer job at a farm/auction house working with the horses. It kinda sucks that it doesn't pay, but it has potential to turn into an internship. It's hard work. I come home super sore everyday, but hey....I'm enjoying being around the horses so I can deal with it. Today I had to groom 60 horses...I never want to look at another brush again. Or at least for the rest of the weekend. I did it all by myself. I had to wrestle a mustang, who wanted to pick fights with everyone. Gotta show all these cowfolk people I can handle horses just as easliy as they can, cause I know sometimes they might think I'm no good cause I didn't grow up on a dude ranch like they did. =P. Also....thoroughbreds are silly. I was walking one to the sale barn and she spooked because the wind blew and started bucking and throwing her weight around. Silly horse. I got to mess around with some stud horses too. I've decided when I get a horse I'mma get a stallion, just cause I think the challenge of working with him would be a lot of fun. I loved working witht he ones at the barn.I just need to pick a breed. I'm thinking a saddlebred though. I've always liked them. We'll see though. It'll be a long while since I have to get me a new car and buying a horse is about as expensive as buying a car @_@. Cursed money.

it's kind of frightening when you  put a picture up on myspace that should prevent people from spamming your mailbox with sweet and not so sweet nothings  because you are 'so hot' and you still get hit on....

I may be cynical, but when I opened my myspace messages today someone left me a message saying " hey i love that picture...it shows character! We should chat sometime!" Maybe it's just me but what does that say to you? What kind of character is he looking for? The kind of girl who likes getting her hands 'dirty' so to speak..

 that's just ...ew....if you hit on me while I have my hand up a cow's patoot what's that say about you >.> are you digging me because of what I'm doing or do you just want to get to the cow?

So...to report on Massachussetts...I'm having a blast so far aside from my brother being a douche. The snow is great, we are having a blizzard right now so watching the snow fall is a lot of fun. However the family and I are ready to send Josh back to Louisiana. Before we left, he was causing problems about my granddad and I going to get him to bring him home so we could pack. He was lucky to get two extra weeks with his girlfriend, but his selfish little self was being an ass about having to leave. I called him and had waited thirty minutes for him to come to meet me and when I called him he hadn't moved an inch he was sitting on the couch. SO after we finally get him to meet us he was like " Well I wouldn't have showed up and just made you go by yourself" " Yea I know you little prick that's why we made youc ome today instead of wednesday because i'm not putting up with this crap. I know where she lives i would have come and yanked your ass outta there." I know he's upset about leaving his girlfriend, I'm sad about having to leave Max behind, but that's part of life. We weren't capable of living in Louisiana...we had no money coming in and couldn't pay for anything, Mom and dad didn't wnat to move because they'd be leaving their family behind, but in order to provide for us, they had to leave. He got two extra weeks. He should have been greatful for that. I didn't get to say good bye to max he did. But he's being a shit about it all. Today he had to go get a simple shot for school, but he got there and acted like a complete idiot, mom had to shove him through the door and hurt her back trying  hold him down. Finally the nurse said forget it she wasn't going to deal with him. So he won't be able to start school on monday. A simple needle and he caused so much trouble. It went beyond him being afraid of needles. He was just trying to make the ordeal entirely miserable for mother. So now she probbaly slipped another disk in her back.


So she took his phone and crushed it..and that started a whole new fight abbout him and jami. When we first said we were moving Jami said she wouldn't talk to him ever again if he was moving...even though they are supposedly madly in love with each other and have been together a year she was just going to up and quit talking to him. I don't understand what kind of girl fi she loves you would make you choose between you and your family. You can do the long distance thing if you want to. I don't like it but if thye an make it owrk for them go for it, but with how shallow their relationship is it wouldn't last and I know it. Josh has to know it. They don't trust each other at all. They can't talk to any guys or girls other than each other. It's ridiculous. I wouldn't let a person decide who I could and could not hang out with. If I was friends with them before I met you i'm sorry I'll be firends with them afterwards. I have a shit ton of a guy friends that's the way things are. Guys have a lot of girlfriends because we are geared that way.I don't like Jami I don't like that josh is so hooked on her when she's a horrible person for him. ...I think we should ship him back to louisana and see that for himself. But I don't know what the family is going tod o. I'm tired of him. I love being up here so far and I want to enjoy it without him being selfish and fucking everything up because he doesn't get his way. the family sacrifices so much for him to try making it easier and he just throws it in there face...sometimes  I just hate people...how can you be that selfish...?